It’s been a while since I posted. There are a lot of reasons for this, but the major two are that I’ve been so busy lately and that I haven’t felt like I have anything else to add to this blog. I want to keep writing, but I don’t know what to write anymore.
A lot has happened in the last few months. I moved out of my parents house (for good this time) into this really nice condo with three other guys. One was a mission companion that knows I’m gay, and the other two I didn’t know. I told one of them that I was gay, and had a lot of interesting conversations about it. I agreed with some of what he said, but not always.
Shortly after I told him, he sold the condo and moved to Vegas, so the other two roommates and I found another place to live. It isn’t as nice as the other one, but it’s still pretty good. I’ve also been buying a lot of new furniture and I’m really happy about it. It’s nice to feel so independent. I came out to my other roommate (on April Fools Day….oops), and he is really cool about it. We talk a lot about my thoughts and feelings on the matter, and he is generally understanding. The only time I felt frustrated with it was when he asked me, “So when did you decide to be gay?”. Yeah…it was funny…ish. He talks to me about his girl problems and I try to give him advice. It’s so great to be totally honest with the people I live with.
I’m working a lot, but it’s good. I sometimes get frustrated with certain aspects of my job, but I love the people I work for. They totally make it worth it.
I’m starting to figure out my life and where I’m going to go with school and stuff. It’s good, but also very daunting. I’ve started looking into grad schools, and that is intense. I don’t feel like I’m ready to do it, but I need to. As for right now, I’m looking at the University of Utah and a school in Indiana. I just got started, so I’m sure there is a lot to do. Yay.
I’m surviving. And yes, sometimes it feels like just that. Survival. But I am surviving, and I think I’m finally getting to a place where I can stop swimming and start wading – for a few months anyway.
One last thing – those who are interested or who had been following information about my dad and when he got sick, here is an article published by The Deseret News that features his struggle with the Swine Flu (complete with pictures!).